Ben and I decided several months ago that we are ready to add another person to our family through adoption. We set up a timeline and as that timeline gets closer I can’t help but think about this child more and more.
I pray for this child, I smile for this child and I cry for this child. Wherever they are, they are already mine and I am anxiously yet patiently waiting to hold them.
I think about painting their name in wooden letters to hang on the wall. I think about what bed set to purchase for them, what clothes to buy them and what their nickname will be.
And then I am stopped with a pit in my stomach and take a moment to think about this child’s parents. I pray for them. Especially the mother. I pray for her safety, her health and her emotional wellbeing.
Not everyone can understand this feeling. Not everyone is called to adopt. But if you have ever thought that ‘maybe’ you will be open to adopting someday, then it is safe to say that you are not there yet. There are no maybes in this type of decision.
In the past few months I have made of list of promises to our new child. Here they are:
I promise to be unfair if it means protecting your soul or your safety.
I promise to tell you no and not let you get everything you want.
I promise to make you eat healthy foods and drink milk.
I promise to make you clean up after yourself.
I promise to make you respect your elders.
I promise you will not like me at times.
I promise the reason you may not like me at times will be my fault.
I promise to admit when I’m wrong.
I promise to apologize when needed.
I promise to live by example what a relationship with Christ looks like.
I promise to support your every decision.
I promise to hug you, kiss you and tell you how amazing you are.
I promise to treat you like my own, because you are.
I promise to love you.
I cannot finish this post with dry eyes-no matter how hard I try. I do not know this child, but I love this child. This kind of love is nothing compared to how our Father feels about us, but it’s kind of a big deal.
Beautiful post Kim. You and Ben have beautiful hearts. I have been praying for you and Ben and that little child that you will eventually welcome into your homes and lives. I can’t wait to start seeing pictures and posts about it.
Have a great weekend. Take care of my boy Ben for me. He’s your child too. 😀
Thanks, Moe! We are so excited to share this journey with our cyber-fam. 🙂
Oh, and I often refer to Ben as my ‘man-child’. ha!
I will hold on to that title until I’m old and grey, and Optimus prime still in hand.
This is so beautiful!! Thanks for sharing your thoughts and passion with us! Our children – nothing but God’s best gift to us 🙂
Thanks for stopping by, Cindy! I agree, children are God’s best gift to us!
WOW!!! I have been really wanting to change my path in life and have taken baby steps. Now I see who I want to me and I thank you for showing me! I want to be a woman that Sophie wants to be like and a wife that the boys want to marry. Kimie you are that woman! Once again thank you for showing me an example of what God wants from me and for me!!
Hey, Rach! Good to see you on here. 🙂 Thanks for the comment love.
Kim, this is great. I love reading things like this. You and Ben have a wonderful marriage and it is fantastic to see the love you share for your kids.
Dustin! Thanks for stopping by and I was SO glad to hear that your daughter is healthy and well. God is good.
Wow! Your capacity to love amazes me! Its very easy to love a child, but not everyone would give a second thought to the mother. What a lucky child this will be. I will start praying for this mother too and wait for this little one to join the family. Did I mention how proud I am of you and that I love you bunches….
This child will be so lucky to have you as an Aunt!! I love you and am so happy we are in each other’s lives after all these years.
That is so moving! My husband and I were told we could never have children, we have a heart to adopt and started the process but along the way we decided we wanted to try to get pregnant. We trusted in Gods’ promises and asked Him for a baby. A month later I was pregnant! I was nervous throughout the pregnancy, but kept my eyes on God. We now have a beautiful gift from God! But our hearts still ache for adopting, we know someday God will bless us with that child. Thank you for sharing, it is amazing to hear my own feelings being voiced back.