Last week, and the week prior you may have notice the amount of activity over here on Ben Sayin’ (or the lack there-of). Ironic, no?
As I stated in my monthly review, it’s not that I haven’t had a lot to say, I just really felt that I couldn’t hit the “publish” button.
I have 31 drafts in Evernote just hanging out, having a woe is me party ’cause I won’t let them out and play. On some of the drafts, I honestly felt like I physically couldn’t move the mouse and press “publish,” so I would save it and go do something else. I actually feel like they weren’t mature enough, and that maybe they need a little more attention. Some day. I really felt muffled to say the least, a lot of thoughts that would start off great, but would just fizzle out right before my eyes. It kind of felt, out of control.
So Sunday. This past Sunday to be exact is when I woke up, got ready to go to church and asked God for strength against the enemy keeping me silent, in any capacity.
My attitude changed about what I felt I should write, and I was able to visit some of the unfinished (immature) drafts in Evernote to publish at a later day, and it felt good.
Along with the attitude change, something even better happened. Something unexpected. This quick change sparked a little energy in how I interacted with our 6th grade dudes. Long story short, we had one of the best discussion times we’ve had all year on a Sunday, and it was very encouraging. These guys were asking some deep, thought-provoking questions as any seeking boys should. It was awesome and I am super pumped our group is heading down the right direction. Kingdom-bound.
This isn’t the first time I went into this recluse/silent mode, but it’s the first time I’ve consistently not published for a couple of weeks straight, and it kind of stunk.
Changing my attitude, and changing my mind cleared the road to speak some awesome truth into the lives of our dudes. There’s a bible verse in there somewhere, probably.