As I went into the weekend, I first believed we would further the growth of an awesome group of 6th grade boys. I found very quickly (as in the first minute of the first worship set) that God had a completely different plan, for me.
The current theme around Walking Wisely Weekend, was of course based around Proverbs 13:20. As we began our first session of the weekend, I thought about how awesome it is that these 2100 middle schoolers not only get to receive an incredible message, but they’ll have at least 2 older people walking with them for the next 3 years to help them along the way. This is a big difference from what I experienced at their age, and all I could think about is that I have been entrusted to walk with some of these middle schoolers, boys specifically, to “do life” with them during this most critical season of their lives.
Wow, what a privilege, who am I to get this honor? I find it absolutely incredible, and humbled that I am going to be able to play such a significant role.
On Saturday night the boys got a chance to open up, and share what paralyzes them, where they feel they are weak. Now I really want to go into detail about what was all discussed during such an awesome Saturday night discussion with the boys, but I have given them my word as their leader that what we discuss during those moments will stay within our group. This is my promise, and I intend to keep it. I also promised them that I have an awesome community online, and some pretty incredible friends that I can count on for prayer, but will also keep them in their prayers as well. I assure you these are real children, with real problems, and I praise God that people who are of stronger faith will have a part in bearing their burdens with them.
So what paralyzes me?
Now I am not one to normally admit that I have a fear of stepping into a more predominant role within a ministry, but here I am admitting this to you right now. Why would I do this? Well, it’s easy. I feel it is comfortable for me. Notice the common denominator? The word’s I and Me.
If anyone speaks, they should do so as one who speaks the very words of God. If anyone serves, they should do so with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen.
1 Peter 4:11
This is what I’ve asked God to continue to work on. I believe He worked on me 3 years ago when I stepped into the volunteer role of a 4th grade small group leader and He’s continuing to work on me with this now, more so than ever.